Assalamualaikumwrwb!
Hello folks! Whoaaah i feel like a zombie waking up from the grave now. Its been ages since my last post here. I even just realized that Blogger has the new layout. Is there more thing i missed out? World War III maybe? I don't hope so.
Yeah,it's 2013 already! Wohooooo! it'll be the most amazing and challenging year for sure! UN and SNMPTN is like 4 MONTHS AHEAD! Yes,i know i should be studying right now (That's my reason why i didn't post many. I don't have time for it. Well,i don't really like writing tho.)
Looking back to 2012,last year,I felt so blessed and grateful that year.
First,
MBSS went well! yeah,with many problems of course. Something good always comes with bad things,right? we should only focus in the good thing,right? It was frustating yet exciting to welcome the new fam members of SMANITRA. I got so many life lessons to learn. I felt so blessed to be surround by great great friends aka MBSS team who made it happen! I don't know what i should say or do to thank them all,i told you, they're amazing! thankyou for all of your hardworks! thankyou for your loyalty! I hope i could thank you one by one and express how grateful i am to have y'all! Hope God will reward you with the things i can't give to y'all! Amin. And i want to say WELCOME TO THE MOST AMAZING SCHOOL EVER,FRESHMEN, Brothers and sisters! SMA NEGERI 1 TANGERANG! SMANITRA! Yes,say it loudly,proudly! You all are now entering the new stage of life, a high school life. Hope you'll get amazing life lessons and adventure here. And don't forget all of the values we told you in last MBSS. :D
 |
| Colours of the new spirirt! SMANITRA '55! |
Then, Thank God for letting me join the
Student Exchange program in my school. Alhamdulillah,i went to Australia on July with like 30 others for 17 days.DOPE! I felt so much blessed that my father (who works in Garuda Indonesia) got the free airplane ticket so we didn't have to pay for it. (That was the reason why he let me in the program,we paid less than the others! Alhamdulillah) It was an amazing adventure! i would post loads about this later! not now! Because there's so much to share about this. hahaha :D Here's some pictures for you. (Random,super random pictures!)
 |
| Agnia - Dina - Etew - Gue |
 |
| Arrival! wohoooooo! |
 |
| Subuh-subuh di Sydney Central nunggu kereta sama cici Yoan :3 |
 |
| Darling Harbour at night baby! |
 |
| Opal iting - Unknown - Oo gendut |
 |
| Harbour bridge,bung! |
 |
| Boys and gals mejeng di Sydney! |
 |
| Sydney Opera House |
 |
| Let's get the party started! In Social Night! |
 |
| Bule gila! |
 |
| Sophie - Elsya - Ela - Megan Fox |
 |
| Yang di belakang suram.... |
 |
| Me plus little Aleah :3 |
 |
| Emma Watson - Kitana - Demitha |
 |
| Home sweet home,miss you all guys! |
 |
| Lachy - Pencuri kesempatan - Baden |
 |
| Narrandera Hostfam! Dad - Mom - Dian Sastro - Melinda |
 |
| Cousin Alison - Pevita Pearce |
 |
| HAHA! |
 |
| Barbie (BBQ) in the backfield of Macksville High School |
 |
| Cutie pie Aleah belum mandi,hihi |
 |
| Macksville hostfam! Dad - Mom - Sherina - Aleah (kurang si Willow :( ) |
 |
| Last night in Narrandera :( |
The most important part of 2012 is on December,15
I finally forgave myself. I finally made peace with myself. It needs 17 months to forgive myself. I used to blame myself more and more that i couldn't make it happen. i'm pretty sure y'all know what i am talking about now. Yes,it's all about AFS(YES). I used to believe that it was my biggest failure in life. I thought i was so stupid that i can't make it happen, yes it was like only 1 more step to get! It was like i could see Times Square in just 10 cm in front of my big eyeballs. And the biggest thing that always be my nightmare last 2 years was that i couldn't make my mom proud. And made her cry of my failure is hurting. (Although,she never showed me how dissapointed she was,nor showed me her crying,i know she was.) Sick,you know. Everytime i had mom in mind and my failure mixed together i felt like hell. I was so mad to myself. I remember her painful smile just after she read me the AFS letter. That strong fake smile just to make me feel better. I was crying loudly like there was a Hiroshima explosion in my brain,like there was hunderds of knives stabbing right to my left chest again and again. I am sorry,i'm being hyperbolic now. But it's true,i don't know how to say it. Thank God for sending me an angel like mom. She's a brave strong woman with full of love inside her pure heart. Thank God for waking me up on December 15. For making me realized that it's not a FAILURE but a LESSON. For making me realized that i couldn't always be like that,blaming the girl on the mirror and keep yelling and saying how stupid she was. I finally realized. i can't blame myself! why? because again,i'ts NOT my FAILURE at all! I gave my best and the rest is in His hands. So why so sad? It's the best plan that ALLAH gave me. I know,ALLAH always give me the best way. Allah strengthened me,Allah built me so that i can be a better person.
Allah let me fall hard so i can bounce even higher! Life is a trampoline right? Who knows the future? No one does. So who says i broke my dream? i didn't! Yes,i know i'm still on the way reaching it. I believe that someday i'll be standing proudly in the Liberty Island. I believe that!
 |
| BELIEVE! |
 |
| My Dreamland's skyline |
But..... its way long to go. I still have plans and targets that i should reach first. Like..... PTN. OMG it's like 4 MONTHS AHEAD (Reminder)! hahaha let do this fellas! It's our journey. It's our choices which way to go. Let's enjoy this amazing journey called life. We all don't know what our future will be. So let's create it,because the best way to predict our future is to create it!
Semua orang pernah jatuh. Beberapa memilih terperosok lebih dalam,dan lainnya mencoba berdiri lalu lari kembali. Bagaimana dengamu?
Hey,its 21.57 already! Time to go back to work! See ya later folks! :D
Assalamualaikumwrwb!
